A Bit of this. Not of that.

It is not in man’s capacity to understand the complexity of a God or a higher entity and it’s plan for us as humans. It is hard enough for man to try to understand the deep intricacies that lie within him. Inside every human, there is some sense of helplessness; an empty pit inside our soul that is longing for a unique and divine fulfillment. There is something deep within us that is searching for something that is unable to be filled by anything tangible or resolute on this Earth. It’s something we are unsure of, and often are completely unaware that anything like this even exists. At times we feel as if we are a great mathematician that’s on a brink of a discovery, only to find that what we thought was the real truth and answer couldn’t be anything further from the solution to the equation that we are desperately trying to solve. Other times we are certain we have found the cure to our problems surrounding these questions, of course, only to repeat the theme of being totally inaccurate with entirely insufficient reason to reckon. A feeling of loneliness and despair that is a calamity to the virtual collages that we have designed as the innovative way to garden our lives. These feelings are not only normal, but almost a preordained necessity that is a way to balance out the left and rights we take down the cliché road of life. Certain aspects of these emotions are so volatile; they can become a threat to our mundane state of mind that is an often unappreciated tranquility we have grown overly accustomed to. Yet in the very core of all of these thoughts and emotions, is the quintessential part of our ability to be able to find out the meaning of many of our questions and to better understand the true nature of ourselves as human beings. When we become cognizant of this grand scene, is when we can began to discover the true meaning of life and to never have to question our torrential downpour of thoughts that sometimes cover our hearts from seeing and feeling the real thing.